Anywhere, AnytimeI needed the contact of another human being. I needed a hug. I wanted to be held. I felt down and heavy with a throbbing headache that reached my eyes. All I wanted was to go back to my apartment, close the blinds, and roll myself into my blankets and just be there for a while.Anywhere, Anytime by Makona-Duke
But I could do none of that – I didn’t have the time. Not even enough time to ease the headache that was nearing on to a full blown migraine. I dropped my father off back at home having just gone to my Grandmother’s for our weekly trip. Sundays we went over to have breakfast with her, one of the days out of the week that I really enjoyed myself. But today was quite the opposite. Waking up with a head ache really killed the vibe… But then, so did the depression that hung over my shoulders like boulders. Now I was on my way to work.
I needed human contact, but interaction was a whole different matter. I didn’t want to talk. I certainly didn’t want to be around a crowd of talking
Things Get BetterExhaustion hit me like a freight train after the party that never happened. I’d invited a handful of people to my Taco Tuesday… and no one showed. So the huge amount of left overs was tucked away in containers and into the fridge and the dishes used whilst cooking… I couldn’t be bothered by them. I left them exactly where they had been left – here, there, all around the counters and in the sink – and I carefully treaded to my room. It was barely past seven-thirty p.m, but I couldn’t take it any longer. I was upset with myself for hoping too much for a nice get together with people I wanted to talk to, who’d become part of my life, if ever so slight. My heart was heavy, my head hurt with the pulsing negativity, and everything just seemed like too much for me to bear at the moment. This wasn’t the first time it happened.Things Get Better by Makona-Duke
So I went to bed. I hid myself under the covers. And time crept by slowly.
I eventually fell asleep. I woke around
Just TonightFor the night, my character was alive and whole. I was feeling unbearably lonely and I needed someone to hug me. So when he shimmered into existence, I felt myself tear up. His eyes were kind, his smile warm. He held his arms out for me with a knowing look. I let out a little sob both out of relief and desperation, then I tossed my notebook onto the coffee table, carefully got up from my recliner, and walked to him, terrified that he would disappear if I were to move too suddenly. But he didn’t.Just Tonight by Makona-Duke
I walked up to where he sat on the sofa and I gave him a ‘are you sure’ sort of look. He raised a brow in slight exasperation and waved me closer. As slow as a snail, I climbed up onto his lap to straddle his legs. I felt small when he wrapped his strong arms around me, enveloping me in a warmth I hadn’t been expecting. He kissed the side of my head, kissed my cheek, and then held me closer in a hug that reassured me I wasn’t alone. He was right there with me and,
Thank YouI'm in my favorite jammies with my oh so huge shirt and comfy lounging pants,Thank You by Makona-Duke
my hair in a messy bun thing,
and my favorite mug full of steaming coffee in my hands.
I'm sitting on my couch that doesn't want to let me go,
watching a beautiful movie on my laptop,
and enjoying the setting sun streaming through my window.
There isn't a day that goes by that I want anything more than this,
This feeling of peace, this feeling of fullfillment.
I've got everything fate has decided I needed and I'm grateful;
I've my own place, my precious two kitties, and, most importantly..
I've still the mornings where I wake up every day.
I'm alive, I'm breathing, I have the free will to feel, say, and do as I please.
There's nothing in this world that can make me any happier than I am right now.
I'm a sideways kinda person! :]|
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I liiike, loooove, adooooore yaoi; writing it, reading it, but maybe not watching it - I feel embarrassed because, well...... The sex noises. omg the sex noises are so awkward and embarrassing. xD!!
I like to read and cook, and - - S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G. Good lord I love to shop. I've just recently been kicked out of my tomboy phase (though I still refuse to wear makeup) and I've been spending so much money on shoes and clothes and - soon - I'll be buying me some lolita dresses. *^*!! MWA HAHAHAHAHAH
I'm pretty open-minded and, hopefully, I'm easy to get along with. I'm lazy, I love to procrastinate, and a lot of time there's gotta be an incentive for me to do shit. (And I curse a lot, oops hehe X3)