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It's alright to tell someone your feelings. It's alright to tell them that you can't be more than friends and that they deserve someone who'll return their feelings with their whole heart... It's alright to tell them that you still want to be friends because you don't want to lose them...

But after saying these things... Is it alright to feel like a shallow bitch? I feel like I've just done something I've already come to regret. Because he wants me to fuck myself. Because I should have told him this two weeks ago. Because my apologies are fucking bullshit and they don't mean a damn thing..

Maybe I should have tried harder to be a good girlfriend.. I don't know, didn't know how, though.. I'm so selfish. I couldn't get it out of my head that maybe, just maybe, he would see past all of my imperfections and be oka with who I am. And he was, for the most part. He was, is, such a good guy. He was a great boyfriend. He was funny and smart, and so damn imperfect that it made him him and that was fantastic.

So should I have done something different? Good gods, I've just lost a great friend because of these stupid feelings... I could have had a reliable, awesome friend -permanent to a point boyfriend-, but I had to go fuck it up because I just had to go tell him what it was I was feeling..

I definitely don't deserve someone if that's how everything was going to end anyways. What the fuck is wrong with me. Fuck.

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I'm a sideways kinda person! :]

Find me on Skype!! :D!! jen.duke4

I liiike, loooove, adooooore yaoi; writing it, reading it, but maybe not watching it - I feel embarrassed because, well...... The sex noises. omg the sex noises are so awkward and embarrassing. xD!!

I like to read and cook, and - - S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G. Good lord I love to shop. I've just recently been kicked out of my tomboy phase (though I still refuse to wear makeup) and I've been spending so much money on shoes and clothes and - soon - I'll be buying me some lolita dresses. *^*!! MWA HAHAHAHAHAH

I'm pretty open-minded and, hopefully, I'm easy to get along with. I'm lazy, I love to procrastinate, and a lot of time there's gotta be an incentive for me to do shit. (And I curse a lot, oops hehe X3)
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Thanks for the fave :D
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SDAlexandria Apr 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fav :)
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ShadowDia963 Mar 15, 2014  Student General Artist
thanks for the fave~ :3
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Espurrfect Mar 10, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!!
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Makona-Duke Mar 10, 2014  Student General Artist
You're welcome, friend! :3
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Makona-Duke Mar 3, 2014  Student General Artist
ROAAAR
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:iconrazzp:
how have you been?? I haven't seen you in a quite a while, but I guess that's what happens when someone deletes their facebook ^^;
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Makona-Duke Mar 4, 2014  Student General Artist
o_o..... I WISH FB WOULD ALERT US WHEN OUR FRIENDS DELETE THEM SELVES. THE AGONY OF NOT EVEN KNOWING UNTIL I'VE BEEN TOOOOLD! *Falls to knees and sobs into hands*


....*Gets up and hits you upside your head* D:<<
Why'd you delete your FB thingy??

....Then again, probably a smart move. =w= Hm...

I'm doing good. xDD Trying to get off my ass to look for a governmental placed job and I also need to call the vet to get Menma fixed. Working. Chilling. Buying girly clothes. xDD How have you been??

I HAVE MONEY FOR YOUR TRAILER, SO WHENEVER POSSIBLE, COME GET IT. IT'S YOUR LATE CHRISTMAS PRESENT.

...And I've come to really adore baked Lays potato chips. They're very tasty. And grilled cheese. I love them sammiches.

How's work been? :3
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Roxanna123 Feb 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the fav! :D
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