So I woke up on a semi positive note this morning, but the world decided to throw a big mass of fuck you Jenny and I've bathed in bullshit all day long. -___-  I go to work and have to put up with major attitudes from customers only to come home to deal with a helluva lot more from my little sister. I know I'm not the greatest person in the world or the best influence to be around, but does that really mean I deserve being looked down upon? Especially after being generous enough to let my sister borrow my laptop? I hate people messing with my stuff because they always find one way or another to jack shit up.
I'm being a little vague, but I'm so fed up that I don't even remember what started the anger this time. Susie just said something stupid and I lashed back. -__-

I really want to get away from here.... I want to move out so bad. But I understand I need money to do that, plus, Susie, I admit, is the only one who would be able to handle me being a roommate. We were planning to move in together once she was ready and when we had money to do it, but.... She throws a bug one at me and told me last week that she's honestly thinking about joining the Army..

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I wrote all that yesterday. Didn't feel like finishing it.

Right now, all I'm hearing is the world saying 'F U JENNY NOBODY CARES' cuz I don't have any real problems. Just a lot of major insecurities. They're hard to tackle. Now I have one of my friends who I've been hanging out with a whole lot lately that are making them that much worse. She's not doing it because she knows it or.. like... Doing it on purpose. She has a helluva lot more insecurities than I do and she's needy and clingy and she just has to know that people like her and that she's pretty. She's not shallow, she just has a lot of problems. It's just a lot of what she says hits close to home and makes me feel even worse than I already do.. le sigh...

Doesn't help I feel so damn uncomfortable in my own skin. x__x

I've been thinking about getting a 3rd job, for night shifts. I dislike all this time I have. I mean, I love being able to just laze about doing not a damn thing, but it's slowly driving me bonkers. Plus, more money is always a good thing, right? Maybe I could go try at Ihop. lol I hear it's a fun place to work at. xD...
Saving money is difficult. e.e

The friend I've been hanging out with lately has been the only friend I've seen in a long time.... Now she's down in San Marcus for the week and I feel pretty damn lonely. I didn't notice how much I need someone with me to keep the day bright. We all know how depressing a Jenny can make things be, after all. xD I wanna go see my other friends, but, unfortunately for me, they've all got lives now. They really do have more important things to do rather than seeing me. Which I totally get. Bills aren't gonna pay themselves, right? No sirree..

...Yup...

Oh, and it totally blows. x-x  I am completely dried up with writing. Nothing looks appealing anymore. I get too restless with one even if I just start it and it's like.... well shit. Freaking no more inspiration these days. I need to stop being so bleh and get back with the program.. It's making me pitiful and sad.. ;w;

I hate living like a complete spaz.. Dx...